Shaking my head, a smile lifts the corners of my mouth only slightly.
Blue.
Like… what? That’s the prompt. And so I look around the room every which way.
Something… anything… okay, that lamp. No, not the lamp.
The memory book on the desk… eh, probably not that either.
I’m hemming and hawing and then “oh! the bag in the corner! it’s blue!” but still, I’m falling short. I’m looking everywhere for inspiration and coming up empty. The words have been like that lately.
I write to know what I think but sometimes I’m scared of my own thoughts.
That’s the honest truth of it. This past month has been full of endings and and all I can process is that I don’t want to process any of it. And then that simple word – blue. And I’m stuck. Uninspired.
Until I’m inspired by that exact thought. All these things that look like maybe, well, nothing significant – they’re each something and I love them for reasons that anyone walking around my little box of a room would never know.
You wouldn’t call these items inspiring – and maybe you’d say “blue” is just a word. And maybe, I don’t know, you’re feeling a bit uninspired to write, a bit overwhelmed by life, a little bit unsure of the place right where you find yourself tonight.
But that lamp provides light as I work into the night as a
The blue memory book is where I record one line a day so I won’t forget the big stuff and the mundane, too.
(Yesterday’s entry: I tried so hard to go one day without dairy. But yeah, fail.)
(Keeping it real, y’all. Dairy and I are BFF.)
And then that blue bag in the corner… I’ve been here for nearly two weeks and nope, still no dresser. I’d like to think I’m easing my way into this big-girl thing. The inside of that bag currently holds several warm sweaters. The outside is covered in a fun print that reminds me of that verse about anchors.
(Anchors and I are also BFF.)
We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure.
Maybe we should start a new saying about how there is no such thing as an uninspired life. Words are important and sometimes thoughts are scary, but Light will lead us and help us to remember the important stuff. Our anchor will hold within the veil.
All that…from the color blue.
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Love this! Uninspired? You? Not from the words you express!!! I have had a hard time getting into FMF lately – not because I don’t love linking up with everyone, but because I am soooooo tired by 10 or so on Thurs. evenings…and forget to check for the word on Fri. (mostly because I become busy with other things and forget!!)…but this one, I read somewhere the word and that has been running around my head ever since. Yet, I still have not written anything. Maybe today?! I know it’s late but…I have not been doing much writing lately…
Thanks for sharing your words with us!! One of these weeks I’ll be echoing your words – FMF TWO WEEKS IN A ROW!!
Hey, no rush, right? They’ll come when they come.. at least that’s what I’m telling myself, too. It’s funny how I can somehow write on the word BLUE but can’t find words for the stuff that’s really on my mind. Looking forward to seeing you back when you’re ready.
Great thoughts.
This post is awesome! I love how honest you are. I would have made the prompt work and write something completely out of the oridinary (my post was about college basketball, ha). You took the initiative to say “this isn’t working”. Bravo!
Calling it like it is, friend. Ha! “This just isn’t working.”
I smiled as I read your post because you’re wearing a blue shirt in your author photo. Okay, denim. But still.
“There is no such thing as an uninspired life.” For whatever reason, that settles heavy on me. Not in a bad way. Something I need to think about.
It’s a sentence I’m still turning this over, too…
Beautiful, Kaitlyn! I loved what you said about how there’s no such thing as an uninspired life. Oh to live like I believe it every. single. day. :)
And dairy? I wish I could be BFF’s with it. I miss cheese so much. But alas, dairy exacts too high a toll on me. So, maybe you can enjoy some for me. :)
Thank you!
And it’s terrible, really. But I was thinking through everything I had eaten the past few days and it all sounded normal – cereal, a sandwich, yogurt and granola, etc. But then I started to realize DAIRY. EVERYWHERE. I kid you not, at 3pm yesterday I gave in and thought “to heck with it… dairy is everywhere.” Kudos to you for going without!
“I write to know what I think but sometimes I’m scared of my own thoughts.” Um-yes. Pretty much the whole thing is a big, fat yes! And anchors and I are bffs too. (I just got the tattoo-for this very verse. A week ago). Love this, and you!
Yes, I saw that tat and thought of the verse! I just love anchors.. don’t even know why.
Good gracious, Kaitlyn – you never disappoint! :)
Dang. Thank you lots!
Wow! Kaitlyn, you totally took your uninspiredness and made it inspired. At first, I looked around my house for blue items too. I love hoe you say there is no such as an uninspired life. Because I believe you are so right especially ehrn we trust in God!
I think we should make that sentence a “thing.”
Amazing! What an amazing journey through your thoughts on the color Blue- you have such a gift! I love this line: “Words are important and sometimes thoughts are scary, but Light will lead us and help us to remember the important stuff. Our anchor will hold within the veil.” Perfect! Love this!
Thanks, Karen! I figured maybe if I just wrote my thoughts down as they came it might turn into something. Thankfully it did this time!
Yeah. The prompt made me think of my students and I found myself getting all teary-eyed. But you’re right. None of us live uninspired lives. God places inspiration all around us and he guides our thoughts in such beautiful ways. Enjoy your ‘grown-up’ life! With God at your side, nothing will be too scary!
I’ll have to click over in a minute and read about your students!
Great way to turn a prompt that didn’t trigger any immediate thoughts for you into a lovely reminder of Who our anchor is!
Can I ditto my own comment to Jen and just put it right here, too? K good.
Girl, you make me laugh! Because I was like, “blue?” too. :D Love your honesty, and how you managing to make a super meaningful post out of lack of inspiration. That, my friend, is being a brilliant writer!
Well thank you! :)
P.s. I’m currently listening to that FMF video and love hearing your voice out loud and not just in a post!
I agree with Jen… #BrilliantWriter (Need proof? “Words are important and sometimes thoughts are scary, but Light will lead us and help us to remember the important stuff. Our anchor will hold within the veil.”) Yeah. That.
Ha, oh that sentence… that was me trying to wrap up a post that didn’t quite make sense. I wanted to get all three items in there!