(I’m going to try doing a different format for Sunday Song–I’ll put all the lyrics at the beginning, then I will break them down and put them right in front of what I’m referring to, so that it will hopefully be easier to follow and understand.)
This song has been on my mind more than normal this past week. The lyrics are so powerful. I know I say that every week, but this song…wow. It goes from desperation and sorrow and pain to just letting go and basically saying, “Okay, God, whatever You want is cool with me. Just stick with me through it.” And that’s the journey I’ve been on the past 7 months (and it’s the journey I’m still on). While I don’t like what I’ve gone through, and while I obviously never wanted to go through such pain, hurt, brokenness, and loneliness, I’ve grown so much, learned so much, and I wouldn’t trade it for having no pain. I wouldn’t take away who I am now, trade it with who I was 7 months ago, even though the pain etc. might fade. I’ve been on a journey. And I can truly say, with no second thoughts, “let the waters rise if You want them to.”
Let The Waters Rise by Mikeschair
Don’t know where to begin, it’s like my world’s caving in
And I try but I can’t control my fear
Where do I go from here?
Sometimes it’s so hard to pray when You feel so far away
But I am willing to go where You want me to
God, I trust You
There’s a raging sea right in front of me
Wants to pull me in, bring me to my knees
So let the waters rise if You want them to
I will follow You, I will follow You
I will follow You
I will swim in the deep ‘cause You’ll be next to me
You’re in the eye of the storm and the calm of the sea
You’re never out of reach
God You know where I’ve been, You were there with me then
You were faithful before, You’ll be faithful again
I’m holding Your hand
God Your love is enough, You will pull me through
I’m holding onto You
God Your love is enough, I will follow You
I will follow You
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Don’t know where to begin, it’s like my world’s caving in
My world caved in. Without a doubt, my world caved in. They were my world. That’s the problem. God was not my world and so when everything fell apart, my world fell apart. I didn’t know where to begin…I still am having a hard time beginning again. Yeah, sure, it’s been 7 months. I know. You’d think it would be long enough to get over it all and move on. But I can’t. The ‘new beginning’ that started over 7 months ago is still hard to navigate. The pain is still fresh and the brokenness is still raw, at times. Sometimes I don’t know where to go from here. I’m stuck in between so much. I’m loving those that don’t love me back any more…haven’t loved me for over 7 months, even though they “loved me more than I could ever imagine”…and I don’t know how long I’ll be able to still care about them and love them so much.
And I try but I can’t control my fear
Where do I go from here?
I have fears. When they left, I was full of fear and doubt. Truthfully, the fear and doubt remains. I fear commitment big time. BIG TIME. But that’s another post.
Sometimes it’s so hard to pray when You feel so far away
But I am willing to go where You want me to
God, I trust You
It’s never really been hard for me to pray through all this. I think that’s because He was all I really had left. And He was willing to listen and love me, no matter what time of the day or night I called on Him. And He would never leave. It was (and is) guaranteed. I’m willing to go where He wants me to go. It’s sort of scary, but I know that I can get through anything with His help. I trust Him more than I ever have before. That’s one of the best things that has come from all this. Possibly THE best thing.
There’s a raging sea right in front of me
Wants to pull me in, bring me to my knees
So let the waters rise if You want them to
I will follow You, I will follow You
I will follow You
The raging sea is right in front of me and all around me. It’s wherever I look. I don’t want to drown. So many times I have felt like I was drowning. It wants me to fall to my knees. In a bad way. But sometimes it can be a good thing…depends on how you look at it. See, I once heard that the best place to be is on your knees…because then you’re in the perfect position to pray. If He wants the waters to rise, if He wants it to get harder, if He wants more pain and hurt to come, than who am I to say anything but, “So be it. I will follow You and love You regardless of what happens.”
I will swim in the deep ‘cause You’ll be next to me
You’re in the eye of the storm and the calm of the sea
You’re never out of reach
He has remained next to me. He never left. He was there in the calm times and there in the stormy ones. He is still here now.
God You know where I’ve been, You were there with me then
You were faithful before, You’ll be faithful again
I’m holding Your hand
See, this is the key: He knows EXACTLY where I’ve been. Yet He is still here. Ironic. I’ve screwed up more times than I can even imagine. And He is still here. I wasn’t the best I could be in the relationships that failed. He is still here. I have turned from Him and done the wrong thing on purpose. He stayed by my side. I have cried bitter tears, I have been unforgiving and unfair, and He hasn’t left me. My sin put Him on the cross. And He chooses to still be with me now. What greater Love can I ask for? What greater Love is there? He has ALWAYS been Faithful to me. So I know He will be Faithful to me again. And again. And again.
God Your love is enough, You will pull me through
I’m holding onto You
God Your love is enough, I will follow You
I will follow You
His love IS enough for me. It’s truly all I need. I know that now. I could live without anything as long as I had Him and His Love. Think about it…it’s really all we need. He WILL pull me through all this. I’m holding onto Him and I’m not letting go.
