I’d just like to say that I’ll have you know I did NOT sleep well last night. And I even took my sleeping pills (that I’m supposed to take…news flash: they don’t work. blah.). I put a towel under my door so the lizard couldn’t get in. Then when I left for church this morning, I put the towel on the other side of the door so that the lizard couldn’t enter, but I could. So needless to say, every time I open my door, I must move the towel so that I can enter, let alone a lizard. But it’s a sacrifice I’m willing to pay.
And I’ll also have you know that when I opened the door to our house this morning, a lizard POPPED OUT OF A HOLE IN THE DOOR and ran away. I won’t lie, I had a mini panic attack. Two lizard scares within 12 hours is more than this girl wants to deal with. And since one lizard is still MIA, I’m going to move onto another topic now so that my heart rate will go down. I really hate those things. Gah.
It’s been quite a while since I did a Sunday Song post, so I think I’ll do one today. :)
Sunday Song info:
This is my attempt to post regularly every Sunday about a song I love. The key word is attempt.
I post the lyrics and then post them again (because I’m redundant-which you already know, if you frequently visit here)…but the second time I include my thoughts. There’s also a video of the song that you can play while reading the post.
Dreams I Dream For You by Avalon
You taste the tears
You’re lost in sorrow
You see your yesterdays
I see tomorrow
You see the darkness
I see the spark
You know your failures
But I know your heart
The dreams I dream for you
Are deeper that the ones you’re clinging to
More precious than the finest things you knew
And truer than the treasures you pursue
Let the old dreams die
Like stars that fade from view
Then take the cup I offer
And drink deeply of
The dreams I dream for you
You see your shame
But I see your glory
You’ve read one page
I know the story
I hold a vision
That you’ll become
As you grow into the truth
As you learn to walk in love
Let the old dreams die
Like stars that fade from view
Then take the cup I offer
And drink deeply of
The dreams I dream for you
You taste the tears
You’re lost in sorrow
You see your yesterdays
I see tomorrow
You see the darkness
I see the spark
You know your failures
But I know your heart
Isn’t that just so true? I don’t care where you are in life, what you’re facing, or what you’re just now coming out of…He sees it all, and we have no idea what’s REALLY going on. I mean, we have our ideas and guesses, or at least I do. But they rarely turn out to be the ‘right guess.’ Normally the path I expected to be on, the road I thought I was following, is SO far from what’s going on “behind the scenes.”
Speaking for myself, I’ve tasted tears and I’ve felt lost and drowning in sorrow. I have days where I feel completely swept up in the past, and I can’t see any good way out from where I am now. I look back and think “those were the good days, so what do I have to look forward to?” But this song reminds me that He sees tomorrow even when I can’t. He knows my future. He knows if healing will come this side of Heaven. He knows what college I’ll go to. He knows if I’ll get married. He knows all of it.
I don’t. And some how I have to accept that; embrace it even. I can’t dwell on the darkness or my failures. I can’t dwell even dwell on what others think, although sometimes it’s hard not to. In the end, He knows my heart. He knows what my intentions have been all along. He knows the mistakes, and He knows the tears that fell. But He also knows what’s coming, and He knows the victories I’ve celebrated by myself.
He knows my heart. It sounds so simple, but think about it for just a minute. Just stop reading this, and think about all that’s in your heart. Worries, dreams, hopes, sad memories, happy memories, joys, grief, loves, He knows ALL of that and loves you still. Loves me still. I don’t really have words for that.
The dreams I dream for you
Are deeper that the ones you’re clinging to
More precious than the finest things you knew
And truer than the treasures you pursue
Let the old dreams die
Like stars that fade from view
Then take the cup I offer
And drink deeply of
The dreams I dream for you
I love this chorus because it resonates so well with my life now. I’m facing college next year. I’m facing a world all on my own, away from everyone. I had this dream of going to college with my closest friends. I had all sorts of plans that obviously will not come true, whether I cling or not. The greatest dreams, the ones I pursued, will not happen. But His dreams for me will. And although I KNOW without a doubt in my mind that His are better, I have a very hard time letting my old dreams die and fade away. I want to take the cup He offers, while still sipping from my own cup. It’s a balancing act I can’t keep up forever. I know that.
Some days I take my cup. Some days I take His. And some days I drink from both. And pretty soon I’m going to have to pick one or the other. It’s a little scary, because I know I’ll pick His.
It shouldn’t be scary. It should be joyful and, frankly, exhilarating to follow His dreams for me. But that means letting go of mine. And that scares me to death.
You see your shame
But I see your glory
You’ve read one page
I know the story
I hold a vision
That you’ll become
As you grow into the truth
As you learn to walk in love
Let the old dreams die
Like stars that fade from view
Then take the cup I offer
And drink deeply of
The dreams I dream for you
Aren’t those words just beautiful? We know one page, maybe even one chapter of the story. But He knows the entire story. He knows the ending, and we’ve got to rest in that. In the fact that He knows. I don’t know what your dreams are, but He does. And if you’re following His, then props to you. I’m sure it must be amazing. Some day soon I’ll join you on that path, and we’ll “grow into the truth as we walk in love” together.
