Complaining

I have so much to say! I feel like I’ve learned quite a bit through all this. I want to share it all here…just not now. Over time, I suppose.

A few updates: I’m home and still in pain…but the pain is less. Honestly, it hurts more to be at home…but I was able to rest this morning which is what really brought the pain down. I just got a shower (huge ordeal), so I’m pretty wiped out. And tense. But whatever. Nothing I’m not used to by now. And I’m glad that at least I was well enough to come home. EVERYONE seems to think home is better. So far, it’s not. But it’ll just take time.

It’s really hard to sleep. The scar is down the back of my head (by my neck) so I can’t really turn either way. Coughing and sneezing REALLY hurts, and I happen to have a fabulous cold.

But at least the scar in my mouth is almost gone. AKA Now I might be able to eat a little more. I eat about 1/4 of what I used to because I feel full after about three bites. Same with drinking….nothing tastes good.

I feel bored. Isn’t that strange? I mean, I’ve got a book to read and I’ve got plenty of blogs to catch up on…but none of it’s comfortable. The pain never stops.

I am walking better, though. Which is good. Can’t really bend down, and I can’t pick stuff up really. But oh well. That will come with time.

I just feel like complaining. I know, that’s a horrible thing to say. Especially because I’ve been given so much and have so many nice stories to share. I’m thankful, really I am.

And I get SO annoyed now when my family complains about petty stuff that doesn’t even matter. I just wanna yell at them, “Well I just had brain surgery and I hurt every waking moment of the day. Just breathing hurts. I can’t sleep well, I’m exhausted, and I have enough on my plate. So please just shut up. Now.”

But I can’t do that.

But oh, how I want to.

I need an attitude adjustment.

*Edited to add: My family isn’t trying to annoy me all the time with complaints. It’s just that, before, we complained quite a bit. Too much, that’s for sure. After all this, I’ve realized many things…one of them being that I have SO much to be thankful for. So anyone complaining about stupid stuff annoys me. Please don’t think I’m bashing my family, because I walk around complaining sometimes, too. Even after all this.*

6 Comments

Gloria (The Little Red House with the White Porch) on July 14, 2010 at 8:08 am

Hi, One Girl! I have an even BETTER idea than putting your name on my blog… As I said, I don’t have many people visiting at this point in time! My better idea is that I will put in a prayer request for you to my prayer group. It is all anonymous. Your name nor blog name will NOT be used, but you will have a MULTITUDE of people praying for you. I will send you an email after I write the anonymous request. God bless you today!
Regards,
Gloria

Gloria (The Little Red House with the White Porch) on July 12, 2010 at 12:22 am

If you’d like me to put the name of your blog on my blog and ask for people to visit and/or say a prayer for you, just let me know. I won’t write a big thing, just that since you had the brain tumor, you would appreciate prayers. But, mind you, I do NOT have a lot of traffic through my blog, but one prayer you might get is better than none. :) Well, if you’d like me to do that, let me know.
Best,
Gloria

Gloria (The Little Red House with the White Porch) on July 12, 2010 at 12:20 am

Hi, One Girl! I got your email saying that you had a new post, but I couldn’t find your blog! But, HOORAY! I finally remembered! And you know what? You have every right to complain and whine and whatever else you want to do. You have been through a lot. It will make you feel better to complain here. You have to get it off of your chest some way, so trust that we are here to listen. I feel bad that you don’t feel like eating or drinking much. How about getting a container of Kool Aid. I, myself, love Cherry Kool Aid and I like the container because you can make it as strong as you like it. I don’t like it too sweet, but my son (he’s 19) likes it VERY sweet. And how about mashed potatoes to eat? OR, if you don’t feel like making them, throw a potato in the oven or microwave for an hour (at 350 degrees) and when it comes out, cut it and SLATHER it in butter. It’s a vegetable, plus the “fat” of the butter will put a couple of pounds on you if you need it! :) One more tip: if you have to sneeze, try to bring one of your shoulders up to your ear (so you don’t have to move your head so much) and hold your head with one hand, and hold a tissue to your nose with the other! Hope this helps a little. (I once had a pinched nerve in my neck and I thought I’d die from the pain, so I can only imagine what you are going through.) I will continue to think of you and pray for you, One Girl. Take care and I hope you don’t mind my giving my two cents with my tips!
Best regards,
Gloria

Anonymous on July 11, 2010 at 9:43 pm

You have the right to complain, you had brain surgery! i hope you are able to rest more and get more energy:]-Maureen.

Mel Fraase on July 11, 2010 at 7:49 pm

I agree, you have a much better attitude than they! Prayers for continued healing and pain relief!! Get better and stay positive! You are so strong!!

Bellismom on July 11, 2010 at 5:07 pm

Sounds to me like they might need an attitude adjustment. I don’t see anything wrong with you saying that to them. As a matter of fact I probably would have by now. Sending prayers your way!

Gloria (The Little Red House with the White Porch) on July 14, 2010 at 8:08 am

Hi, One Girl! I have an even BETTER idea than putting your name on my blog… As I said, I don’t have many people visiting at this point in time! My better idea is that I will put in a prayer request for you to my prayer group. It is all anonymous. Your name nor blog name will NOT be used, but you will have a MULTITUDE of people praying for you. I will send you an email after I write the anonymous request. God bless you today!
Regards,
Gloria
Gloria (The Little Red House with the White Porch) on July 12, 2010 at 12:22 am

If you’d like me to put the name of your blog on my blog and ask for people to visit and/or say a prayer for you, just let me know. I won’t write a big thing, just that since you had the brain tumor, you would appreciate prayers. But, mind you, I do NOT have a lot of traffic through my blog, but one prayer you might get is better than none. :) Well, if you’d like me to do that, let me know.
Best,
Gloria
Gloria (The Little Red House with the White Porch) on July 12, 2010 at 12:20 am

Hi, One Girl! I got your email saying that you had a new post, but I couldn’t find your blog! But, HOORAY! I finally remembered! And you know what? You have every right to complain and whine and whatever else you want to do. You have been through a lot. It will make you feel better to complain here. You have to get it off of your chest some way, so trust that we are here to listen. I feel bad that you don’t feel like eating or drinking much. How about getting a container of Kool Aid. I, myself, love Cherry Kool Aid and I like the container because you can make it as strong as you like it. I don’t like it too sweet, but my son (he’s 19) likes it VERY sweet. And how about mashed potatoes to eat? OR, if you don’t feel like making them, throw a potato in the oven or microwave for an hour (at 350 degrees) and when it comes out, cut it and SLATHER it in butter. It’s a vegetable, plus the “fat” of the butter will put a couple of pounds on you if you need it! :) One more tip: if you have to sneeze, try to bring one of your shoulders up to your ear (so you don’t have to move your head so much) and hold your head with one hand, and hold a tissue to your nose with the other! Hope this helps a little. (I once had a pinched nerve in my neck and I thought I’d die from the pain, so I can only imagine what you are going through.) I will continue to think of you and pray for you, One Girl. Take care and I hope you don’t mind my giving my two cents with my tips!
Best regards,
Gloria
Anonymous on July 11, 2010 at 9:43 pm

You have the right to complain, you had brain surgery! i hope you are able to rest more and get more energy:]-Maureen.
Mel Fraase on July 11, 2010 at 7:49 pm

I agree, you have a much better attitude than they! Prayers for continued healing and pain relief!! Get better and stay positive! You are so strong!!
Bellismom on July 11, 2010 at 5:07 pm

Sounds to me like they might need an attitude adjustment. I don’t see anything wrong with you saying that to them. As a matter of fact I probably would have by now. Sending prayers your way!