Today I turn twenty-five.

And I’m just going to be honest, that feels weird to type… much less speak out loud.

Maybe because, for an entire year, every time someone has asked my age (which shockingly happens more often than one would think), I’ve immediately answered “twenty-three.”

I mean, I don’t lie on purpose. Somehow my brain just can’t keep up with the fact that, for literally 365 days, year twenty-four was a real thing.

You become what you behold... (free print from

For reasons I haven’t been able to put my finger on just yet, twenty-five feels important. It sounds like change and feels like worn-in jeans, like maybe I’ll continue to learn to live fully where I am and be settled inside, even while things shift around me. It feels both comfortable and new, and I like the sound of that.

Twenty-four held beauty and joy, laughter and answered prayers. It also held sorrow and confusion, laps around hospital floors and more unknowns that I could count on two hands. Twenty-five will hold much of the same, I would imagine. Halfway through year twenty-four, I hung up the phone after receiving terribly scary news and I wrote a post titled When You Need to Know the Story Isn’t Over. And look how it isn’t, how we’re all still here, how the pages keep on turning.

And so I’ll choose to be present in the moment, thanking God for the present, the gift that it is.

all is well (free print from

And also, I will drink all the iced coffee, have dessert before dinner (chocolate chip cookies with sea salt on top, bless it), and I’ll end the day toasting to twenty-five in “best day ever” glasses with one of my favorite people.

All is well and all will be well and my gosh, I’m thankful for another year. Here’s to the next chapter.


Gifts and coffee for you…

So listen, here’s the thing: I really wish you and I could get coffee. I’m pretty sure we’d hit it off, don’t you think?

But since we likely don’t live in the same city, I’ve been dreaming up a way to send you coffee.

And at the same time, I’ve been trying to find a way to send a physical gift to everyone who left a review for my book, .

Because I’ve worked as a launch team manager for nearly a dozen book releases, I know how vital book reviews are. And, to put it simply, I want to say thank you to those who took the time to write words about my words.

(That’s almost as weird a sentence to write as “Today I turn twenty-five.”)

(Publishing fun fact: 50 and 100 are really important benchmarks for Amazon. When you hit 50 reviews, Amazon begins promoting your book in book slideshows. For example, if you scroll down when viewing a book, you’ll see dozens of other book recommendations. Amazon selects those books based on similar purchases + the number of book reviews.)

All of this got me thinking, and I figured… why not combine the two ideas? Why not thank those who have left reviews and, also, send coffee to people?

And so that’s what I want to do to celebrate my birthday. Send you gifts and coffee!

Here’s how it will work…

The first step to receiving an answer... (free print from

See all the images in this post, the prints that several talented artists designed with quotes from Even If Not? If you’ve read the book, you know each chapter begins with beautiful artwork. And if you’re an email subscriber here, you received all 9 prints as a PDF when you subscribed.

But if you’ve left a review of Even If Not on Amazon, I want to send you four of the prints. In the mail. Like the good ol’ days when you opened your mailbox to more than a pile of bills.

And if you left a review on both and GoodReads, I’ll send six prints your way. (Yep, you can totally copy and paste your review from one site to the other.)

And, because coffee absolutely must be involved, I’ll randomly pick a couple people who leave reviews both places and let’s just say there might be a Starbucks gift card tucked between the prints. Because if we can’t have coffee together in person, the next best thing is treating you to coffee from far away.

Too often we compare our beginning to someone else's middle... (free print from

Simply email me, before December 1st, at and include your mailing address as well as a link to your review(s). You’ll hear back from me within 48 hours…and then a package will be on the way to you! Please, please know that I do not read reviews for my book (pinky-promise)… I just need to be able to click the link(s) and see that you aren’t spam. :)

Right now, Even If Not has 37 reviews (I only know this because I just looked it up) so we aren’t too far from 50. I say “we” because, in so many ways, you’ve been with me from the book announcement to the book release and have continued to cheer this white & gold & silver book on.

But listen, y’all.

Jesus is good and gracious... (free print from

It would truly be wonderful to reach 50 reviews on both sites because it means will find its way into the hands of those who need it, those who are broken but hopeful, desperate to find God in the middle of a storyline they wouldn’t have chosen. At the end of the day, that’s why book slideshows, and therefore reviews, matter to me.

Honestly, it feels more than a little bit awkward to even mention reviews, but I know how much they matter and I know that you keep on showing up here and you’ve cheered for this book from the get-go, so I trust you’ll hear my heart behind these words.

Even if only those who have already left a review see this thank you gift, I am 100% okay with that.

It’s no small thing to take a minute to write a review, and I’m incredibly grateful to those 37. So if I mail exactly 37 gifts? It’s worth the cost 37 times over.

When we let God do the mending... (free print from

(If you aren’t sure what to say in a book review, a good tip is to pretend your best friend asked what you thought about the book. What would you honestly say? What did you love or learn? What stood out to you? Etc.)

Many, many thanks to you for being here, for reading all these many words, and for being a community of people I consider my friends. Year twenty-five is better for having you in it.

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9 totally free printables from the book Even If Not by Kaitlyn Bouchillon